After the man and the flashing lights and the threats to cut off my thumbs (because as the person who looked like Timothy K but wasn’t as his smiling face didn’t make the lights go out), I tried to overdose on pills but just ended up passing out and vomiting for a few days.

I tried to jump off a fence. Looking back on it, the fall wouldn’t have killed me, just given me a concussion, but none of us knew or understood any of that then. Lisa caught hold of me and refused to let go.